This Life is a Farse

I remembered a birthday party when I was a little boy. I was... in the palace, with the king. It seemed important for me somehow.

I found a paper that said I could shop in any store. This is not the first time something like that happens to me, but now I know this wasn't a mistake.

I think someone thinks I did something to deserve this. It was because of the ball? Or something else?

[Filtered to Sakura]

Sakura, I really enjoyed spending time with you at the ball. I'm glad you didn't have such a bad time.

I-I wouldn't mind going with you if there is a another event like this one.

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I have this strange flower too. T-thank you... whoever send it to me.

I see we have to go to that ball, I wonder what is it purpose.

[Filtered to Sakura]

Princess, we should go. Erh, not like that! I mean, something bad will happen to you, and Kurogane-san suggested... I'm sorry! I didn't mean that! You should definitely go, but if you don't want to go with-I'm sorry.

I think you should go with Mokona.

((This is the most retard invitation ever.))

I remembered more things, I just didn't talk about them earlier.

I lived in a kingdom with my father. It was the place I remembered passing my childhood in, where my father died.

It was a desert, with beautiful ruins that father and I were studying. For some reason I frequented the palace a lot, maybe it was because of my father's work - but I was happy there. Even if the king didn't liked me much, I can't remember why.

That's all about my memories.

I saw the new buildings; they appeared just like the Onsen did. What do you think, Ginko-san?

[Private. Unhackable.]

Fai-san:

I hope you are in a good place right now. I'm sad you won't read this letter, maybe I should have written something like this before.

You were the person who were always there for me. No matter what I did, you always gave a smile and made me feel better.

Even if you had troubles, you always thought first in everybody else and tried to cheer them up. You were so nice, I wish I have helped you more with your own problems.

I'm sorry I couldn't look for more about your disappearance.

I wish so much right now. Everybody here misses you. I do it, too much.

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I'm sorry for not writing this earlier, I was still a little tired.

I'm back. There was... nothing I could find about Fai-san, or any missing person in the island.

Sadly, I couldn't investigate all of Memento Eden due to the winter and that it would take me too much time, maybe months.

There is no information in the town about disappearances, or about anyone that disappeared here. Is like... a blank page of information in this island. I doubt it's a coincidence.

I tried to explore in the woods, I was there for some days. I'm sorry. I couldn't go very far because the cold was starting to affect me. If there is something about the missing people beyond the woods, I wouldn't... know it. I'm sorry.

I'm sorry for all the troubles I gave you, Phedre-san.

I hope you can forgive me, Kurogane-san. I know I shouldn't have done this, I... just needed to know.

Everyone is changing to animal's forms here. Ginko-san believes it happens when you hug certain persons. I will try to investigate about that.

[Filtered to Sakura]

...Are you having so much trouble because of the changing? If you need me to do something, I will do it!

I can take care of your job if you change again.

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[Filtered to Phedre]

Phedre-san, can I talk with you?

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[Filtered to Sakura, Mokona and Ginko]

I will ask Phedre-san if I can leave work for some days, I want to look in all the places I can for a clue about Fai-san's disappearance. I don't want to worry any of you, I will be fine. But it will be better if it isn't known by many people. Please don't tell Kurogane-san after I'm gone, I know he won't like it.

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((OOC: Thus, Syaoran will probably disappear for a few days.))

Today I will fight at the tournament, my opponent will be Cloud-san. I will try to do my best, but I'm kind of nervous: this will be the first real fight I can remember having.

I hope I don't disappoint you, Cloud-san.

My training with Kurogane-san went really well. I'm grateful I have the opportunity to train with him. It was hard and I appreciate that.

Kurogane-san immediately noticed my right eye is blind (I think the only person I talked with about that was Phedre-san), so most of my training focused on sensing people and objects without seeing them. I wore a blindfold around my eyes all the time.

I regained some memories as well: I was in a race. It was strange, the cars there weren't like the ones here. They flied. I wanted to win, I had to win because I needed something.

But I lost and I didn't feel bad about it. It was because I had to help a friend who was competing in the race, he had an accident. His name was Ryuu.

Fai-san was there too! It seemed he was in the race but lost like me. We were in a room with really big screens showing us the race and the people who were still in it. Kurogane-san was one of them. Fai-san talked about Mokona, but I can't remember seeing her in the competition.

((OOC: He isn't saying what Fai told Ryuu about 'their family,' he doesn't want to make Kurogane mad. XD))

I finally went to see if the paper I found weeks ago in my room was really worth a book set. I still don't know why all those things appeared there, but I'm kind of happy this one was authentic.

I didn't know what book set to get. I wanted to bring the Mythology set, but I finally chose the one about Martial Combat with one-handed sword. It was the best option since I have to train with Kurogane-san.

I'm so sorry, Kurogane-san! I know I owe you training. I promise you I will go this time, I will do my best! I was so busy this week, but I can do more hours if you want! I hope you forgive me.

I will study those books now.

Phedre-san, I'm sorry! I'm so late for this. I finally bought your coat, I hope it's the one you wanted. I... have something for you, as an apology for the delays. Please, accept it!

Sakura? Tomoyo-san? Can I talk with you?

[Filtered to his friends]

I... think, time ago, someone taught me how to fight, when my father still lived and I was a little kid. I robbed a book (I don't know why, it's not something that gives me pride) and that person saved me from the people who attacked me for what I did. He said he would train me in combat if I translated that book for him. He was looking for... vampires.

He was... Seishirou-san. The man you remembered killing people in our travel, Kurogane-san.

I remember my father now, his name was Fujitaka-san. I seemed to travel a lot with him; he was a archaeologist and a really gentle person, he always smiled to me and taught me a lot of things. I wish I could remember all of it.

I think he died. I can't remember what I felt then.

[Private]

But now I know he wasn't my father, how could he be? I'm not... Who was he? Do I have the memories of the real person? Why did I... borrow them?

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Phedre-san, I'm so sorry. I only just found coats in the store today, I hope you didn't endure too much cold because of me.

I don't know what kind of coat you want. If you don't mind, you could tell me and I will give you the prices.

Again, I'm sorry.

Fai-san... can I talk with you?

I'm starting to think the things I found in my room are some kind of gift from this place's owners. Some thing just... I don't think are meant for me, but everybody else received them. And there is a note that says it's worth a book set.

I'm still waiting if someone wants to reclaim them. I didn't use anything.

I still don't remember any winter but I don't think it will be bad. I just have to find some winter clothes and a coat for Phedre-san... is strange, it seems there isn't any coat on sell yet, but I promise I will find one, Phedre-san!

Fai-san is really good at gathering people, he always has amazing ideas. I really enjoy carving pumpkins.

[Filtered to Kurogane-san]

I think I remembered something. Kurogane-san, I have to talk to you...

I'm sorry.

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((OOC: Syaoran just remembered things about Kurogane's past. You know he won't be talking about it in a journal, even if it's private. XD))

...Um... My head is hurting. I didn't feel so good today, work was hard because of this. Phedre-san is really nice to me. I'm so sorry for everything, Phedre-san!

I went to visit Fai-san last night, I think I started to feel weird then (because I hit my head?)... I'm sorry if I gave you any trouble, Fai-san.

Then I was... training with Kurogane-san? Was that a dream?

I don't know if it has something to do with this place but there is something weird happening to me.

Since I came here, sometimes, I experiment... holes in my memory. When I was looking for the princess in the building, the day of the fire, there was a moment in which I just... found myself in a place and didn't know how I got there. There were other times that this occurred, too.

Has this happened to someone else?

((OOC: Syaoran had his 'lose his heart' moments. I thought that Touda's log would be a good time to bring his clone's side, but I don't think he, or Sakura, will be in danger there. XD))

Today I came home after work and I found a nice strawberry cake in front of my door. It was really strange and I wondered if someone forgot it there.

... When I was going to get it from the floor the cake just... it just... attacked me. First I thought it was some kind of machine, but then I saw something like a... mouth in it, and inside that mouth I saw that all was sugar and... cake. It didn't look like a machine. I think it bit me.

That wasn't a normal cake, was it?

...What happened to the building? Everything is... somehow restored. There are some changes like rooms, more floors... this is strange.

I work now with Phedre-san taking care of the boat. I know I should do my best now.

Mister with the red hair and the eye-patch (I'm so sorry I didn't introduce myself!), how are you? How is your arm? Did you have any trouble going to the healer's house?

I can't see anything... there is so much smoke here...

I think everybody is safe but... I can't find Sakura! Where is the princess!? I have to find her...